December

So it has begun. I may misunderstood what i've read, but i have the feeling it's true and it will happen what i am mostly afraid of. I know why i wanted last month to end the year and not have a december, but now it's futile, i just have to make it through. I just accept it and try to ignore what may happen in the next weeks. I'm sick of more rumors she may spread about me, but what can i do against it more than just roll my eyes. My good mood just got a huge lack, but why shall i let her destroy my mood, when i simply can think about the near future. Beginning next year i am out of the dilemma and maybe she can suck it up too.