Change in plans

So originally i was going to fly to beijing, stay there for a week, go to Chengdu and fly back from Shanghai. Because i found a cheaper plane and a better date if i flew back from beijing, the plan changed, and now that Yvonne knows that the apartment will be full in september, beause her roommate comes back from vacation, i thought it might be better to put the beijing trip on the last week instead. Now i will reach beijing on my birthday and will most of the day we will sit in train.

很难的哈尼

汉语

我的哈尼今天告诉我要写更多中文的博客。我以为她是对的，我不写多中文的博客，可是我要写多的。如果我不写多中文的博客，所以我不学习很多的汉语呀。我也要写中文在纸张，可是我以为我的大学的老师给我们多的写作业。因为我在大学也很忙，我没有时间学习汉语。

假期

我的哈尼跟我在夏见。我坐飞机去北京见她，她在飞机场等我下飞机。我相信我们是很幸福。我们都很紧张。我们还不知道住在她的家还是宾馆。

嫉妒

哈尼是一位难的哈尼。如果我见一男的朋友，他很可悲我没有时间。如果我见一女的朋友，他很嫉妒。我不喜欢嫉妒，可是我知道了她只是嫉妒，因为她爱我。我很对不起我常常不是一好的男朋友，可是我希望她知道了我也爱她。

Goodbye Vacation

And welcome back school. The vacation kinda seemed long though considering the events happening. Getting a new girlfriend, celebrating Chrstmas, celebrating New Year, got 5 postcards, was writting in the book and now Jens also comes back from his vacation. The real ending celebration for the vacation was kinda missing though. BaCa was awesome, but the BBQ should have been taking place. The good thing with its being moved back to next week though is that Jens is back in germany and can join the first BBQ in the year :)

Let's skip X-Mas

I'm not really getting a present anyway and if i stay at my mums house, my dad might be angry cause i promised him to be home and if i stay home my mum will be angry because it's the only free day for her. The best choice will be just going with friends out in the evening night, but then again there might be no friend who has time on that day anyway, so yeah let's skip it :D

Afterthoughts 二

It was my first relationship over a long time aka over 3.5 months and with a real intimate life. I don't regret what i did, i dont even regret having a long range relationship, actually it is awesome aslong you can trust the other one and you dont have the feeling to visit the other one every day. a bit of distance isnt bad at all. But when you feel like the other person is using the space they have to betray you then the fun is over. i never had a proof and i never can be asured what exactly happened, but trust cant be just wished back out of nowhere so i will cope with what i think, what happened. I'm not even angry at her or myself, like it happened it just happened. i don't even regret paying the money for this long trip, because in the end everything happened gave me experiences in relationships and in trust, although i fall for this false trust again. Every journey needs to have an end and it's time to let go, so i can just cope with it and surely will find someone else where maybe this new experience will help at the end.

Afterthoughts

Its already a few weeks ago and i think its time to not only try to forget about some things but to face them. I was over 5 weeks in asia and i experienced so much i did never experience before in that amount of time. i learnd that a lot of things she does, she did because of her culture and not because she was unfriendly which i thought in germany when she did it. On another note i was considered to be unfriendly there because I was not used to there habits, like she wasnt to germany's. One thing i experienced was that "everyone in asia smileys always" is a lie, also it is a lie that its unfriendly to eat everything from your plate, but people always put things on your plate. things are cheap in singapore and for litte things you may get a huge punishment (ex. 1000 dollars for driving bicycle on some walkways), but i felt its more words then actually things done by the police. its a tourist magnet, shirts with such stuff but nothing more. In singapore you have a high reputation as a european, especially as a german, often you are looked at when you are the only caucasian, specially children look at you because its something new for them but otherwise you are really welcome. Also people try to be friendly and try to speak english with you, not like in germany where every shop is angry when you dont speak german. People in singapore seem to be more direct, whether they want to help you in translation things or are angry at you and tell you that. Its kind of strange in the beginning when people tell you thatthey feel like you are unfriendly, but you get used to it and apprechiate critism, thats mostly because of cultural differences anyway. the weather is overkill though. most of the people never saw snow before and have only one season. 25 degrees may seems ok, but with 90 percent humidity its really nervwrecking. i still have the feeling that when i was sweating that much was one of the reasons she left me from the beginning, but i may be wrong. One day at the waterpark i was completally white because of sunlotion twice and still got my second sunburn there. i am just not made for the tropical climate i think. Maybe Agbar wasnt either, which is why he committed suicide in my coke. its really sad that my chinese has no improvement here and noone has interest in me learning it anymore, because there i learnd alot and i really wish i could improve it for my future.

Fifth Month

So We're in the middle of a long wait. A wait to see each other again. The tickets are bought, the dates are made. The longest time we ever had. The first time for me to enter a plane. We have 5 weeks to make the stuff we want to do. You can show me everything and probably we are every night at another place until we find a nice place where we can go more often to. I can not wait for long walks on the beach and neither for McDelivery =X. We will make a giant sandcastle and ride the biggest ferris wheel x). On our program is also Universial Studios, Zoo and the National's Day celebration. And then we go to KL for a short trip. I don't know what else is planned, but i think there is so much to do that we won't get bored anyways even if its only going around. I hope your family likes me and maybe we can make something to eat or go out with your family too. Same with your friends, probably i won't understand anything, but still hope that you can teach me singlish and chinese and stuff and maybe we will have a nice round with your friends somewhere where we can talk about cultural differences and funny things :). Maybe other days going to the theater, making BBQ or watching DVDs. For my birthday i still have no idea what is planned, but i'm sure we can think about something cool, or maybe you have an idea or plan for it already x) Or Maybe that day we have the house near beach with jakuzzi :). I think it's cool that nearly everything can be done late though. With Night-Markets and Mac-Delivery our day rhythm will probably be fucked up all days exept those we have to get up early like for theme park or zoo. Plans are the one thing, but the other thing is holding you finally again and being with you again. Fighting loneliness and ending those months of suffering. For Instance its the next step, 'till now it was only you who saw how i live and never vice versa. Now i will meet your family and your friends and it's another new adventure for us both.

stressful times

Ok, i got a photo and pass for my vacation. It's not here yet but i will get it in the next weeks. I called my uncle for the new netbook and he has yet to get a new connection for it. On sunday i have to go to the polling station for all day again. I'm still considering if The Pirate Party gets my second vote. They need the votes but on the other side i dont want to waste my vote if it doesnt help them that much.

Fourth Month

a third year;
a sixth of my current lifetime;
a time to remember;

So we had it all. Love, Hate and a sidekick that made her puke. It was a month of being close, full of emotions, but also full of fun time. We went to Comix and to my grandmother. We were in Amsterdam and in Düsseldorf. The month was full of memories and events that i don't know what to say about it. Mostly i enjoyed the calmer moments with us though. Just lying in bed watching tv. Playing game, going out for dinner, bathing and swimming together. And you forgot to bring a towel x). At least my finger stops hurting now, Blanket would never bite me though, he was much nicer than that big one. I didnt like the fact that you left though, it felt like my Atlantis was sinking, but i know that you miss me as much, or maybe you only miss the big gaming screen and the nice theme parks or even the Coffee Shops. Maybe we should go back to Best next time and sit in a traffic jam near Michael Jackson. You say you will come back maybe in december already which might be a good idea, because if there is snow and I lose your specs while throwing metallic balls around we might find it again. What i found was only a colored egg and a sock.

Now i have to hurry to get a passport and get everything prepared to find a flight and stuff to arrive in summer. I will come with nearly no clothes, so i can fill my bag there. What i need most is a hat and sunblocker! And then i hope we go out when the sun isnt that high up in the sky every day. It still will be hot, but i like to stay pale and well, i love the moon! more than the sun. And for the stuff we need to be at early like universal studios i will just cluster myself in sunblocker. I hope we find a way to sleep in the same room and bed though without the need of a hotel, but we will see.

I love you ~

Third Month

Happy Birthday

Three Months;
And finally we will see each other again.
So now it's the time. This entry is not about past nor future. This post is about the moment the very next day, when we finally meet each other again. In less than two hours you will sit in the plane already to finally see me again. Today is not only the day you jump into the plane, but also it's your birthday and the third month we are a couple now.In about 20 hours i am finally able to hug you again, to kiss you, to laugh with you, to cry with you, to be with you. You finally have someone on your side again, who cares about you and who loves you. Lately you are having a hard time and I hope this weeks will make you forget about it and you can simply enjoy it without falling back into depression again.

Tomorrow, when i get you I can't drive to late, because the parking lots are pretty expensive and I hope that i may only have to pay one hour then on the other side I have to be careful to not come into a traffic jam. After that we can go into the DD-City to buy bacon, gloves, swimming cloth for me, fries, salmon and other stuff we still need and at home we will make a cheese stuffed bacon roll with fries :). I will present you your presents most likely before eating though :), but most of the presents you know already anyways :D.

One thing i hope is that the weather gets a bit better, because raining wouldn't help us stick to our plan on a few things and could make things difficult. I hope it gets up to 20 degrees again so you wont freeze outside either, especially for Amsterdam the weather should be nice.

We are getting so often in arguments, which made the whole situation difficult in the last weeks and months and i really hope we will find a way to prevent those situations. Maybe it will be easier when we finally see each other again and when we find solutions instead of screaming at each other when something went not like it was supposed to or like we have imagined it. In about one hour your plane starts now and then you have a long and exhausting trip infront of you. I hope you are able to sleep a lot while flying and everything goes well on your stop. I hope you wont be too tired when you are here though, but well when you are we can simply skip DD and go immediatly home for presents and then make something to eat so you can go to bed early :).

Yesterday i already coulnt really sleep, the anticipating is kind of killing me and i hope in the hype i don't forget something important.

I really wish this weeks to be special and i hope we will have even better memories than of the christmas vacation. I really wish for a great time. Well, i wish for it although i know that we in fact WILL have a great time. I love you!

First time getting money from the bank

so finally after 8 years of having this account my getting money from celebrations and buying stuff from it without needing more from the bank is over. now i had to get money from the bank and it's kinda nice to have a lot of money at home again, but still i hope it will not be gone after my vacation.

Second Month

I love you more than i hate the distance between us

Two Months;

And only One Month waiting to see you again. The flight is booked and the trips are being planned. In exactly 4 weeks you will be exiting your plane and hug your boyfriend while leaving the terminal behind. Those 3 months we weren't able to feel and touch each other are long and now we have finished only two-thirds of that long time. But when the time finally has come, it shall be that intense that we don't look back on the waiting and only think that it was worth it.

Last month i wrote about the moments we had and now i will write about the times we will have in one month. Next month we will not only see each other finally again, but in the same few days you have birthday and we are together for three months. I thought about a few things, but havn't really thought everything out, yet and need to plan what exactly i'm about to do with you that day. We will finally go and eat at the Comix. We wanted to go there in december already, but we went there the day it was closed and didn't manage to there there on another day. We also planned to watch a lot of movies like Battle Royale, the detroit metal city movie, repo, wall-e, memento and stuff like that. We may sacrifice one evening for most of the movies while ordering something to eat and lying lazy on the couch or in bed =P

I think we also want to play minigolf, either i just came up with it or we mentioned it on one day as a sidenote. At least i think it may be a cool idea, same for letting you ride a horse, citygirl :D oh and i gotta show you the highland cows or as you would call em *big-mops*
I hope we will have good relative warm weather with nearly zero raining days, so it will be most awesome when we visit different places.

In the second week there will be the biggest event of it all. Our second Amsterdam-Trip! We will go to the Amsterdam Dungeon for sure this time and yes i will hold your hand and we will go to the Live-Porno-Show just for fun =D. Oh yeah and the sex museum of course. I hope we can park outside the city this time though, cause i don't want to pay 50€ for a parking lot again. We may get to eat at the Hadrock Cafe this time or we go to the Sports Cafe again, cause i thought this restaurant was kinda awesome. At night we will sleep in the hostel we found i think its the best deal we can do. i just need to ask around how many friends will stay with us in one room and are willing to share the money then.

We also will go to Belgium, although Merel isn't sure if she really makes a saw-night because there is other stuff going around, but we are still invited to a birthday party there. And we may persuade Merel to still make the saw-night haha.

After two most awesome weeks my school begins and we will have a calmer week i think. On some days when i have cool lessons you may come with me to school and for sports you can join anyways, because its only playing batminton or doing something else there.

After that week we have one last weekend and will have to think about what thing to do as a great ending and then it's time to say goodbye again. But not forever, just until summer. I love you babe and i hope you thought a lot about me on our anniversary :-*

First Month

Good Things Are Meant To Wait
-Claire

One Month;
And hopefully there are dozens more to come. Babe, your problems seem to come back and the past seems to catch you, but this time it'll be different. i can't be with you as in the same place, but i will be there for you and i hope we both can go through every problem that will come. I love you and although you may not feel well at all, think about our anniversary and everything we have gone through together. We live in a problematic world and the distance doesn't make it easier, but when we work together on this, the sun shall be shining again. I will be there for you in this hard time as you were when i was down.

But let us forget about the thing happened for a moment and go back and remember some moments in the time we had:
I first met you on HoJ. You created a tattoo thread and we were discussing about that and then about Kuala Lumpur and at one point i added you on MSN. We became friends, good friends. I remember New Years Eve 2008/2009 when you were in the zoo the day after =). And that was the beginning of a close friendship.


Last year on your birthday i decided to start learning chinese, because you did the same with german and you asked me too =). I kind of lost the rhythm in learning and am still not really better than telling you a few sentences D= but i started studying again, because i just need to be better when you come again xP. I still remember that day though, it was Earth Hour (btw reminder: Earth Hour 2010 is on the 27th March at 20:30) and i was at a friends' house. Haha, some people thought it was stupid that i started learning and others thought it was interesting. I raised my glass on you, because of your birthday and you already felt like one of my best friends. In two months your birthday comes again, but this time i can hold you in my hands and when i think about it i already feel my heart beating. The blog entry i wrote for her is still visible here and it is cool to read it, because now you actually are more than a friend, although i never meant it that way when i wrote it nearly a year ago and i have finally met you. =) That time you helped me through one of the hardest times in my life and i am really glad to had you in that Situation and to have you now.
in July we had the first thoughts about December or April and thought how it could work out, which in fact at the end was perfect =) Around the same time you showed me a few chinese bands, which made me love FIR and later SHE although you pretty much hate them xP.
In December finally you managed to visit me after your trip to the States. And this week was so full of emotions and events i don't know where to start telling. When you were here we did so much and i forgot most things out of the awesomeness of them. One week packed with things normally happening in one year =). To remember what we did i wrote 8 blog entries that tell what happened, but not always what feelings were involved. The moments that are stuck mostly in my head are, when i first met you, when i kissed you the first time, when you were playing with my hair and made the photo i don't like xP, when we were in Amsterdam and the day you left.
Now that you are back in Spore, you left a cube where you were. The moment you stepped into the plane i knew i wouldn't see you again that soon and i started missing you. I think about you every day and not only when we are talking over Skype, but also when i am in school or watch TV, because something is missing. And i know that this something is someone and that someone is you. On the other side i have to admit that i like missing you. Because i know that i'm not only thinking about you, but you may thinking about me too. And missing you is better then missing noone. I wish i could be with you, but the distance won't let us. Aslong as i am in your heart i could care less though, because i love you more than i hate the distance that keeps us away from hugging each other.
Wölkchen, now it is one month and i feel like i know you forever and love you forever. There are more months to follow and in two months we will hopefully see each other again. I love you.

The Way to live with a Bear VIII

And i got my Massage x)
And the other day was the last day of the trip. We drove to Frankfurt and like only ate and got to the airport. There was not much more to do. It was hard to not grab her and pull her out of the terminal x). Jens and Julia were with us and now we sit here and are drinking and damn i found a shoe package. And i cant remember seeing her buying those shoes here =X. Too bad the week is over i even miss her screaming and being mad at me already. But i have the Companion Cube left to cuddle at least x). Honey love you, hope your flight works well =)

The Way to live with a Bear VII

Ok so i try to remember everything. Claire woke up again and we wanted to go to Comix, BUT badly it's closed on sundays =(, so we went to Quincy in Krefeld. AWESOME SHIT. Damn a Pizza as a starter and then two big Schnitzel with fries... that was too much. haha i managed to ate half of it though (less than one Schnitzel, but most fries) x). On the tv in Quincy were commercials for a show on Viva so we watched it after coming home. badly it was dubbed and not subbed.
The next day was the day of Amsterdam. So today we stood up and went there. Pretty much the longest way i drove yet. Too bad we had a few problems that i don't want to write down so that we could only go to Madam Toussad and not the Dungeon. Then we went to the Torture Museum and at at a cool place called Sports Corner or something similar. And of course after that we went to the red light district. GODDAMMIT. best place on earth hands down!. i mean. Bars, Drugs, Casinos and Girls? Is there any other thing a guy wants? haha. oh yeah and the erotic museum lols. the Cartoon in there was kind of funny. Now at 3 AM we are back home and i need a massage... oh and i was iceskating for the first time since 2000 and Claire the first time in her life was pretty cool :)

The Way to live with a Bear VI

So last evening we went to the Bahnhof eating something. "That was fun" x). And then we watched Dead Silence in bed. I love that movie, it's a shame i didn't got to see it before! Claire saw it a couple of times before, but now she knows where Billy is and who Donnie Wahlberg is x). And Damn is her dress nice, asked her to wear it for Comix today again yay =D. Today we went to Cologne: First we went to "Körperwelten" (liked it a lot) and then we saw the Dome and she bought a bag, glass, postcards and stuff. Now we are back home and prepare for Comix in 30 minutes i think. x)

The Way to live with a Bear V

Oh so long ago. Last time i wrote about my presents. Hmmm. We slept until we had to go eat breakfast at my mums house. At around 1PM we ate at my uncle's house and in the evening at home. Every meal was kind of filling so it was the day of anti-starvation and obesity lols. After breakfast with my mum and Mop I we had to prepare for the next eating at my uncle's and Mop II's house. After that we took a break to sleep, cause actually the night before we havn't slept a single Minute, which is good to eat much, but bad to be awake while eating. When my sister and her friend were here we talked a lot about singapore and germany and how Mirco could make vacation and stuff. He and my dad were extremely drunk, so it was kind of fun. Expecially when they started talking about prostitues and when my father tried to tell a story in broken english x). After that we showed my sister the new Jesus and we ended the day by watching a very funny movie that is called Little Nicky. But I think the thing about the movie that Claire loves most was Adam Sandler's hair :D. We wanted to go to my other uncle to celebrate Christmas with them, but we slept until now and now it's too late for it, so we go for Plan B which is eating with my father instead. :)

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